I have a crush! How fun is that?! I feel all giddy and 16ish...but I'll get back to that in a minute.
First, my recent dates.
Friday night I had dinner with a new Internet guy...I guess that would make this 16? I think We went to an Asian restaurant that was overpriced and not great. But all in all in was okay. I, as usual, didn't really feel any chemistry but that's nothing new and he was worth a second shot. Saturday I made plans with 17, also new. I had to work that night and it went pretty late so by the time I got off work we didn't have many options. I ended up going to his apartment which is definitely against my better judgement for a first date but I texted my friend his address haha It was pretty good, easy conversation. Same old same old though, wasn't sure I felt any chemistry. Turns out I haven't heard from him anyway so I don't have to worry about whether to try again or not.
Today 16 asked if I wanted to have dinner at a place where you can play some games too. I definitely had fun but realized I just wasn't going to feel anything towards him. Then, the end of the date came, we were in the middle of the parking lot and I went to hug him goodbye, but unfortunately he went in for a kiss and I ended up giving him a pursed lip peck, then a hug....aaaahhhhh soooooo awkward. oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh it was one of those horrendously embarrassing awkward moments that you fear happening throughout the entire date but it actually did happen. Long story short he texted me after to apologize for the awkward kiss and express interest in another date so I told him the truth, that I had fun but didn't feel any chemistry. Once again, no one has made it past the 2 date curse.
Okay okay, back to the crush =)
I've talked to 2 friends about it now who both think maybe having these stronger feelings for crush than I realized I had is affecting my feelings towards all the other guys. Which leads me to the question: Can you only "like" one guy at a time? Surely not.
Now there are 2 problems, well kind of 3, with crush. 1, he is considerably younger than me and I know that might not bother some people, but it weirds me out a little and is part of the reason it has taken me so long to acknowledge the crush. See, crush is number 5. This is the point where it would be fun to actually have readers who go scrolling back to find out which one 5 was.
Another issue is that he's totally hotter than me, truth be told. Friend said that was stupid of me to make that decision for myself but it's true. The only thing that evens it out a little is the fact that I'm the "older woman" but if he were 5 years older or I was 5 years younger, he would be way out of my league. I have about 20 pounds to lose and he's....mmm, just yummy ;) We barely talk at work, I can never figure out how to flirt with him which is weird because I flirt easily with other guys at work who I'm not interested in, just for fun. We've never hung out outside of work so I don't know how to figure out if he'd even be interested without flat out asking and well that is just plain scary.
I don't normally care, but I wish I had readers at this point to give me feedback.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Day 331: Slacking on the purpose
Although this blog had multiple purposes, originally, a major one was to have something to look back on (for myself) and see the progression from crazed and heartbroken to sane and happy. I've kinda slacked off in that regard. It seems the only time I get on her and blog is when something has happened with ex or I'm having especially depressed feelings about this single life. SO, this one is a new phase. Day 331 is the first blog entry about my new life of dating.
I guess the best way to go about this is to assign them numbers.
1- friend set me up with coworker. Problem was coworker made sudden plans to move back to hometown (out of state) prior to the date. We went out anyway, had fun, but of course nothing further came of it.
2-a groomsmen at work asked me out afterward. Decided to remain open minded even though I wasn't super into it. Should have gone with my first instinct, ugh.
3- another party-goer from work invited me out after. Much better than first one. Went on second date. Planned third date, then it didn't happen. End of story.
I'm just going to go ahead and put out there, since no one I know reads this (hopefully) and say that the new round of dates came from internet dating. I had a very, very horrible weekend revolving around ex, I think I may have actually wrote about it in the last blog entry, which prompted me to take people's advice and turn to the world wide web. So, without further ado:
4-met divorcee with 2 kids at starbucks. the end
5 & 6- made out with 2 coworkers, at the company Christmas party, in a coat closet....not both at the same time, and alcohol was definitely involved, obvi (I'm not proud of these 2 but whatev, I'm apparently reliving 21)
7-coffee date again. Cute, my age, never married, no kids, buuut really not very intelligent at all. To the point that it was difficult to have conversation.
8- finally a decent date. fun, normal guy, good conversation but I just didn't know if there was any spark/chemistry. He was definitely worth a second shot though. The next time he met friend and me out at a bar for a few drinks. Same thing, he was fun, good conversation but still wasn't feeling anything I thought I should be feeling. We planned a third date but it just never ended up happening. I guess he picked up on the lack of effort on my part.
9- lunch date and ding ding ding! chemistry, right off the bat, finally! HOWEVER, apparently I was the only one feeling it. On a side note, I have now met 8 internet guys, I have only felt sparks with one of them, who happens to also be the only one who did not express any interest in a second day. The irony is not lost on me.
10- coffee date, blah, def sure I wasn't interested in a second.
11- met another guy from a wedding at work, I actually went way out of my normal zone of comfort with him and brought him back to my place. I did not feel this was a stupid, dangerous move for 2 reasons. 1. He was from out of state therefore had no idea where I lived when I took him there. 2. I live with a guy so I felt I could yell for help if necessary. No sex was involved, I'm still sticking to my whole not wanting to have a "number" thing. I like to remain at 1 until the guy I'm going to marry if possible. But if I end up in another long term relationship that doesn't work out then I want to stick to 1 at least until I can call someone a boyfriend haha
12-dinner date, back to internet guys... this one was quite far out of my age range (10 years older) but decent conversation and I decided worth a second try. On the second date I went to his apt and he cooked an absolutely delicious dinner. However, I was totally weirded out by the his hand caressing/massaging my scalp while watching TV lol that was the end of that.
13-dull, that's all I have to say
14- friend set me up with hubby's friend. It was a friend who I don't see often and apparently did not know me well because Mr. lack of personality was most certainly not a good match.
15-back to internet, met a guy for dinner and drinks. For some reason he was funnier in writing than in person, strange. Still wanted to try another date though. Went on second date to fantastic Thai restaurant. I'm not sure if this one is going to break the 2 date curse though. I'm just not feeling what I think I should be feeling.
That's it, the whole 1-15 catch up =) hopefully I'll do a better job of staying on top of these dates more often (absolutely no pun intended)
I guess the best way to go about this is to assign them numbers.
1- friend set me up with coworker. Problem was coworker made sudden plans to move back to hometown (out of state) prior to the date. We went out anyway, had fun, but of course nothing further came of it.
2-a groomsmen at work asked me out afterward. Decided to remain open minded even though I wasn't super into it. Should have gone with my first instinct, ugh.
3- another party-goer from work invited me out after. Much better than first one. Went on second date. Planned third date, then it didn't happen. End of story.
I'm just going to go ahead and put out there, since no one I know reads this (hopefully) and say that the new round of dates came from internet dating. I had a very, very horrible weekend revolving around ex, I think I may have actually wrote about it in the last blog entry, which prompted me to take people's advice and turn to the world wide web. So, without further ado:
4-met divorcee with 2 kids at starbucks. the end
5 & 6- made out with 2 coworkers, at the company Christmas party, in a coat closet....not both at the same time, and alcohol was definitely involved, obvi (I'm not proud of these 2 but whatev, I'm apparently reliving 21)
7-coffee date again. Cute, my age, never married, no kids, buuut really not very intelligent at all. To the point that it was difficult to have conversation.
8- finally a decent date. fun, normal guy, good conversation but I just didn't know if there was any spark/chemistry. He was definitely worth a second shot though. The next time he met friend and me out at a bar for a few drinks. Same thing, he was fun, good conversation but still wasn't feeling anything I thought I should be feeling. We planned a third date but it just never ended up happening. I guess he picked up on the lack of effort on my part.
9- lunch date and ding ding ding! chemistry, right off the bat, finally! HOWEVER, apparently I was the only one feeling it. On a side note, I have now met 8 internet guys, I have only felt sparks with one of them, who happens to also be the only one who did not express any interest in a second day. The irony is not lost on me.
10- coffee date, blah, def sure I wasn't interested in a second.
11- met another guy from a wedding at work, I actually went way out of my normal zone of comfort with him and brought him back to my place. I did not feel this was a stupid, dangerous move for 2 reasons. 1. He was from out of state therefore had no idea where I lived when I took him there. 2. I live with a guy so I felt I could yell for help if necessary. No sex was involved, I'm still sticking to my whole not wanting to have a "number" thing. I like to remain at 1 until the guy I'm going to marry if possible. But if I end up in another long term relationship that doesn't work out then I want to stick to 1 at least until I can call someone a boyfriend haha
12-dinner date, back to internet guys... this one was quite far out of my age range (10 years older) but decent conversation and I decided worth a second try. On the second date I went to his apt and he cooked an absolutely delicious dinner. However, I was totally weirded out by the his hand caressing/massaging my scalp while watching TV lol that was the end of that.
13-dull, that's all I have to say
14- friend set me up with hubby's friend. It was a friend who I don't see often and apparently did not know me well because Mr. lack of personality was most certainly not a good match.
15-back to internet, met a guy for dinner and drinks. For some reason he was funnier in writing than in person, strange. Still wanted to try another date though. Went on second date to fantastic Thai restaurant. I'm not sure if this one is going to break the 2 date curse though. I'm just not feeling what I think I should be feeling.
That's it, the whole 1-15 catch up =) hopefully I'll do a better job of staying on top of these dates more often (absolutely no pun intended)
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